My Brain, Fried, Smothered and Covered.

Here is all I can muster up the courage to blog at the end of this week. I am exhausted and drained and fragile and D.O.N.E.

Tonight I got home from running some errands and Jesse was fussy, so I was holding him trying to console him.

And then this happened....

REALLY!!!!! I know a lot of mom's have been puked on. Probably numerous times.

BUT, this was a first for me. Thankfully we have dodge the "stomach bug" bullet for the most part. Emery had it once a year ago. I had it a few times when I was pregnant with Jesse, which actually turned out to be most likely issues with my gall bladder. (I mean does a person really get the stomach bug 4 times in a year???) any way, I haven't had an issue since I had my gall bladder out.

We just had last week to recover from Benji's crazy maybe meningitis scare. It wasn't meningitis, thankfully. It wasn't about a 100 other things either.

They are just calling it a virus that mimics meningitis. Go figure.

I wanted so bad for tonight to be a night of relaxing as a family....haha. Once we all got cleaned up and calmed down we did actually get to eat a relatively peaceful dinner on our porch. Emery loves to eat outside (almost as much as I do). So we grilled some burgers and chilled on the porch while the sun went down. I LONG for these moments with my family. Being in the line of "work" we are in we are seldom at home all together for an evening. I ache for moments where we can just relax as a family. KIDS AND ALL!!! Jesse seemed to be feeling better after his vomit episode, haha. so he ate some and drank some water and didn't fuss anymore after he hurled all over meeeeee......... hopefully it was a fluke and NOT  a virus. I don't think I can handle any more viruses this year. 

  Dinner on the porch. One of my favorite things! 

Panic, Over!

Okay. I can breathe now.

A few days ago I couldn't.

For those of you who don't know my very healthy, never takes an Advil, never misses a day of work, husband came down with what everyone thought was meningitis last Monday.

It wasn't meningitis-THANKFULLY.

But....it wasn't the flu either, or strep, mono, MRSA, UTI, pneumonia, some heart virus??? and about 50 other things they tested for.

We were in the hospital for 3 days.

We left with no answers and he still had a fever.

Our family physician thought it would be best if we met with an Infectious Disease specialist since Benji is out of the country so much and hunts in the woods 9 months out of the year.

To rule out malaria and Lyme disease.

That's when I started freaking out. The appointment with the specialist went great though. He really helped calm my nerves and reassured me that all the test he ran would probably come back negative as well.

So Benji gave 9 more vials of his blood and we were off again.....

It will be funny one day I'm sure. Today is the first day he hasn't run a temp. He is feeling tons better.

Whatever this was really shook me up and knocked him completely off his feet for a week.

We are so thankful for our family that stepped in and took care of the kids, for our church family that prayed, sent meals, emails, etc.

Taking it easy this weekend and hoping that he will be back to healthy on Monday.

Contagion

WHAT A FRIIICKKKKINNNNNN WEEEKKKKKKK!!!!!! 

this is all I'm going to leave you with right now. i am too exhausted to explain and if we are friends on Facebook, or in real life you know the story. 

Tomorrow we head to Infectious Disease Control Center to see if we can find some more answers. 

I at least NOW have a legitimate excuse for my Xanax prescription, right???? 

It is ON!

I gave my self until Jesse turned one. 

That was last week. I am starting my game plan and once I set the goals. 

I won't back down. 

I am ready. 

We Made It!

Jesse turned one!

We made it through the first year!

I seriously can not believe how fast this past year went. I adore my son and can not imagine how we ever lived without him! He has been such a great  baby, especially since he has had one big ear infection his entire life. :(

Bad news is this one year mark means I've got to get busy in da gym or hitting da pavement....the rest of this baby weight HAS to come off. I've got to get motivated, not sure yet which route I will take. Maybe Weight Watchers, maybe South Beach, maybe the no food ever diet...haha. just kidding.

But stay tuned. I'll probably, hopefully, maybe blog every once in awhile about my weight loss. I desperately need motivation.

Depression After Childbirth: NO SECRET!

I've written about it before. I tell most friends if it comes up. All my close friends and family know. I had Post Partum Depression with both babies. It was a TON better with Jesse, mainly because I knew what to expect and second I knew the steps to take to get over it.

Anyway. This blog, A Cup Of Joe, that I LOVE. Just posted on her struggle with it after weaning.

I'll be honest I never expected it from such a seemingly fabulous, chic girl.

Just shows all of us women that it effects anyone it chooses. It's not our fault and help is out there.

Take a minute to read her blog. It's awesome.

My Wish

I want another baby.

I have to wait though. This time we will "try" and plan for a summer baby. Summer babies don't have to worry about RSV or all that yuck.

JESSE WALLACE LADD as a newborn. 

EMERY HART LADD as a newborn. 

My uterus is shaking, pleading for a baby. But I know I need to wait. I KNOW me. I need to wait!
But I got dat baby feva!